Quotes:
† Dream to Lucifer † (and the citizens of Hell)
"I believe in convictions stronger than circumstance, morality when no one's looking, true identity and love motivated by something other than fear."
"there is no such thing as logic, only a line of [sometimes factual] reasoning which the majority of individuals collectively deem correct"
"As I watch the people around me going off in their own directions, in search of their own definitions, they take mine with them."
Hit List:
• Regret •
• Someday • • Holiday • • Retrospect • • Cupid • • Myself • • Conceptual Fate • • Groups of three •
I'd kill hope...
And innocence too,
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Sept. 20, 2002 † 11:23 p.m. Daddy said I would miss those times we spent together: those times we’d stay up talking grown up to grown up till the wee hours of the morning. Then me? I'd fall asleep on his lap.... I found he was right though, but that was only a year ago. Life is short. I'm only 17. I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders, and maybe it is, but that's only because I keep running under it every time I think I see it tilt the wrong way. Some how, for some strange reason, I keep thinking that there's something I can do to fix the mess that is humanity. I keep giving myself false hope, again and again… I am a slow learner. Forgive me. I'm only 17. Life is my foreplay and knowledge my game. Wisdom takes all and maturity the same, but I play them all, with a weary broken hand. This weariness demanding my heart, body and soul with an exhaustion only the sleep of death can allay… Yet I’m only 17. Reaching deep, I find the answers I know I don’t want to hear, but I unwillingly accept the blame and pain. I know the choices and none of the answers, but I'm willing to face them just the same, if only for gain… still only 17. Peace in death, though I live again. Life is death and in it I die. Only through death do I live any life, but it is not my own. My destiny is not my own. I own nothing… I'm only 17. Trust me. I’m only 17, and all too soon I will be 18, and on and on the cycle goes… |
